reflection and thanks to all the folks

People are always there. Some to uplift you some to pull you all the way down. Like youyou was saying the other day. Sometimes, you are there for people but till the end you just see no fruits or recognition. Really sucks don't you think. Sometimes you go out of the way for people but people don't seem to reciprocate, well given most do but not in the way you desire them to. So what are you going to do, are you doing things for ulterior motives or are you really being that friend that you claim to be. If there is a mask it has to come of, simply because you are going to get tired. Sometimes you wonder also is being an elusive person better or being an open person better?Does make sense don't you think? If you are elusive and stay away people end to find you, but if you are always around there is no effort at all makes it seem you are putting in the effort and when you are nto around people don't care. Sometimes its not because they don't call you or what but they never get the chance because you are always making the first move.

Then it goes on to Ps Matt's message the other day, don't isolate yourself. When you are alone it is easy to be attacked, we have all been called to be workers in the field saving the lost and all but yeah workers grow weary also, we need the care and the love too sometimes we feel drained Lord where are you in these times like the poem Footprints went He is actually carrying us but why do we find it so hard to believe?

Lord speak through your word to me. I don't know am I not feeding enough or is my appetite increasing Lord enlighten me on that too yeah. Thanks dad really needed it. Blog diahorrea seems to be a good way of venting should I actually show this entry mayb some parts of it.

This is thanks to all the people who have been helping me through the past few months you've been awesome and even though I questioned so much above, trust me I have seen the reciprocation